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I wish I could understand in rational way the word meaning of "miss". I mean, I was feeling pretty much alones these days - what made me ask about the posture a took from stop talking to you. I had quite clear the idea in my head, and I was living with it normally, sometimes I wish all this bad situation just going away in a magical painless way. In the end it is not just about us two, but the idea of form a close happy and helping group that me, you and Lucas turned into.

I am not telling you that I didn't turn sad and angry when you burned me, I felt violated, so sad, because I could handle the feeling of having some-other-one doing it, or maybe not, but a friend of mine makes all that in a bitter way of seeing our friendship, a bitter depressed way of seeing myself with that injury. Although, when the time was going by I just was leaving behind the hate I felt for you and trying to make a whole new life without you guys. It was so difficult, but I just kept my decision ‘cause in the truly way the burn was a little thing I was waiting to end our friendship.

If there's a thing I know about myself is that I like a harmony environment in my life, Iike seeing all those things going good, without little troubles and I was feeling a tone into your voice and attitude when you used say things about me, like a disdain to me and my things, maybe you don't know that, and probably you didn't do it in a consciousness way, but I used to hate it.

Besides, I think you really negative about yourself, you complaining and trying to find a mistake in your plans, I mean you are intelligent and talent, you don't need to keep those thoughts inside of you saying you're nothing, I HATE seeing you acting and feeling in that way, you're so much more and you don’t let yourself live it, and it's just sad and unfair.

I know I am not perfect in doing my plans in a exactly way that I first thought about, but Dilermando I am trying so hard to get what I want, I wake up and go to the bed just thinking in how to get what it - that drives my life, all the time and I hate to see me failing in my action, realizing that it didn't go in the way I was thinking of, that makes me feel so depressed and sad.

I like being in the middle of people that understand that everything is circumstantial and trying to do some effort in turning then into something better. Sometimes I know it is so difficult to see things like that, but I need to be in the middle of people that believes in themselves and I know Diler you can, as I can, as Lucas can. We burn to live so much beautiful things and enjoying that, but sometimes we are missing it out, losing it out because we don't act and feel in the way we suppose to feel, act and be. I wish I could just turn things better in our relation, but I need we both, we three living what we suppose to live.